okie if i farkin dun blog abt it now, i cant relax my mind and farkin get my ass working on all the outstanding emails and issues for today.. FML~!!!

1st, started the fark up day with 2 farkin persons who took turns farkin pissed me off the farkin moment i sat on my farkin chair!! Our dear Ms Xinhui and Mr Perry Ng.. gonna bow to both of them and wave my farkin white flag.. cb~ one farkin come and ask me farkin strettor ecadd when she is supposed to farkin get it approved.. and nw become my farkin business to farkin get it done for her..?!?!?!?! WTF might as well i might do it MYSELF!! before i could even take in my next breathe, our king sotong (Mr Perry) farkin force me to take up the Merrill call without any farkin info!! OMFG.. i cant believe that these farkin ridiculous things jus happened to me within seconds.. i tot it was alr bad tat i have to farkin settle my farkin GFCID, eCAF and eCADD.. NO! tats not the worse! now i must farkin cover intern's eCADD when they jus simply "IDK" and i must farkin cover for OD report..?!?!? FML

2nd, Pam insisted on a conf call for a discussion on Schroder Service review call ltr in the noon.. fine~ i will join in if you want~ end up, i farkin the one answering all the qns and she farkin kept quiet!!! then why farkin waste my time repeating stuffs which I have alr discussed with Meei Yi? you farkin jus want ur farkin big ass covered lah~ argh~!!!!

so finally i survived till lunch time.. the onli most enjoyable moment of the whole farkin day is the lunch time spent solely alone with DJ.. peaceful, no stress and damn farkin happy~ rly miss such moments and days.. wads has happened or change to cause us not feel any satisfaction from our job..? heard frm DJ tat theres gonna be restructuring again within the team.. oh yea~ jus do it~ i'm alr immune to wadever changes.. cant be bothered.. wad other drastic change will there still be..? fark it

3rd, went for the Schroder review immediately after lunch.. again, i'm not sure why the junior RA is covering the senior RA when kanna whacked by the clients.. i jus tio all the blames and did all the explanation while Pam jus farkin gave the farkin innocent look~ and ends up, i have to farkin take up the responsible to clean up your shit laid warm eggs by end of this week.. totally break the rapport which i have built up with Schroders over the 2 yrs.. all they complained abt are all the recent outstanding stuffs which YOU FARKIN OWED THEM~!! STOP FARKIN ACT LIKE U DUN NOE ANY FARKIN SHIT~!!! BITCH~!!!

4th, and becos of the above farkin shitty review which i got whacked badly, i farkin late 30mins for my next meeting with DMG~!!! FML.. i got whacked so badly that i cant even excuse myself to toilet to make a call or take up my bb to drop DMG an email.. and now, DMG is so farkin pissed.. i have to repair the relationship at all cost.. be it sending a sincere email apologizing for everything, treating lunch, coffee, mooncakes or wadever.. i still have to do it~!! Fark my farkin DAY~!!!

tot everything ends after i hit the gym and farkin sweat myself out.. taking on an extra lbs on each side and since i havent been to gym for nearly 2 weeks.. taking on extra reps and pushing to my limit with each set.. indeed~ all these did help to make me feel btr and damn shagged BUT it didnt end my agony for this FARKIN DAY..!!! when DT told me tat Alfred asked him to help change his flat car's tyre.. i was like WTF~ this is rly too much~ jus farkin google for a Tow car company no. and call lah.. if not, jus farkin open ur car boot and search for tat farkin manual to read and learn how to change a farkin tyre.. i noe driving skol doesnt teach.. but so.. jus read and learn on the spot and change urself lah.. dun act like a farkin pussy and instruct others to help u change ur farkin tyre.. who do you think you are? and why cant u call ur farkin frens.. why must u call DT.. he look like someone who confirm noe how to change a farkin tyre.. whereas ur other farkin frens confirm dun noe.. even LB noe how to farkin change a flat tyre.. FARK OFF lah srsly! i rly farkin wanna say it right in front of his face.. worse still, DT say "he dun rly mind, can shun bian get cigs and learn how to change tyre.." wadever~ i dun rly wanna listen, noe or tok abt it.. i guess my day today is jus so farkin shitty tat i refused to comment any further~ do as you deems fit~ i hardly use this words.. i always find it too harsh.. but when it reached the point when i dun see any light or rationale to say or do anything but i still dun agree with the stand.. i will jus use these words.. i'm sorry for being harsh~ but i dun wanna waste my breathe arguing on pointless stuff~

*all the agony today allows me to realise that being too angry or bottled up anger wun do me any good.. and the only place where i can vent out is this little space here.. pls bear with all the f*** though it didnt rly came out of my mouth the whole day today.. trying very hard to control and control~ nw, i feels slightly btr and let me face my shitty work with a smile so tat i can end my farkup day earlier~ FML