i'm so tired.. both physically and mentally.. maybe its time to give up everything~ jus be normal~

thinking too much or doing too much wun help anything.. so might as well, not putting in any efforts to do anything.. fell aslp twice during today meeting.. tats damn bad when you are placed in a room tgt with Ashish and Boss in there.. but aniwae, the meeting is damn boring.. i can see tim signaling the bui tahan look every 10mins..

become super restless and always procrastinate non-stop nowdays.. joseph is not in today and perry irritates me by asking the last name of the stupid SFS intern. How the fark will i noe.. srly.. realised the Paris Re doc is missing and i have to farkin search every drawer myself.. but srly, it gd to have Jason ard.. without more than a min, he got up and helped to find as well.. all Perry will do is jus cont sitting thr, turn ard and look at me and said "no, i nv see" .... @.!!@@#@@! one day you received so many docs, you sure you rem every single doc not.. and i only mentioned the name.. not even wad doc is tat.. unbelievable~ aniwae, in the end, i still cant find the doc.. lppl

gym was so shagged today.. promised myself to double the workout due to the over-eating over the weekends.. even the instructor laughed at how shagged am i.. feel like eating veggie all of a sudden.. like cooked veggies.. but so late liao, might as well jus go slp.. feel damn tired and having headache now.. wanna chat with DT for a while before i head for dreamland but he's still outside now.. guess, i will jus have to wait until i fall aslp then no choice loh..

sometimes i realised, theres alot of things which are beyond words.. i tried telling myself that romance are all illusion.. stop it.. but when you misses someone, you jus do it as you follow your heart.. theres no right or wrong.. i dun rly wan to be placed in a roller coaster ride again.. but not sure how to not.. confused till i dun wanna tink abt it.. i rly hope end Aug will arrive faster than any other day. And, Diana is also gg to Taipei for biz trip during the same period of time.. lolx.. maybe i will see her in the airport, cos her plane is at 8.30am.. abt the same as mine.. wanna jio her for breakfast in the airport.. but suddenly rem that DT wanna send me off.. so i prefer having breakfast with him alone only.. guess, I have to treat diana a nice dinner for making tat choice.. but aniwae, i still owe her a bday treat..

P.S. If you want to improve your world, then focus your attention on helping others..