haiz finally i have the time to blog.. been busy since ytd till now cant even breathe.. and my heart was pounding superior fast at ytd midnite, usually i would be aslp by then lah but i choose to stay awake and wait for my results to be release. well, not high expectation jus wish tat tis sem i can squeeze into second lower class honors.. then 12am i faster tried to log in, fark ntu system farkin lagging old and lousy.. then after 30mins of nonstop consistent clicking and trying ... my results is out..

Research Methods B
Comm Mgmt B
Wealth Mgmt B
Corporate Lending B+
Portfolio Mgmt A-

cant say i did badly cos it better than previous 3sems.. but tis grades to me is so so onli ba =x hope tat wealth mgmt get A cos i put in alot of effort in the project but screw up the exam not my fault!! fark tat tan! well corporate lending i am happy cos i tink i scored well for exams but chui in the class participation lolx.. well, i am a shy gal! =x research methods luckily nv sad sibei heng oh ya lastly i wanna complain abt the farkin comms lah, the farkin ms f* keep on saying i will be very lenient lah then say wad "joanne, u got strong voice, the persuasive look, give u B+.. etc etc" then fark come out "B" kaoz loh.. i wonder they noe how to assess not.. my language and pronoucation maybe poor but fark u k thr is others who have stage fright farkin mumbling then farkin swaying here non thr aiyah SPEECHLESS!! so in the end i still didnt manage to move up to second lower class ya nice one.. then dearie keep on saying "i tot u already understand liao, no different a degree and a honor" yea yea i understand k but wad wrong with aiming high? it nt like i farkin aim until first class then whole day LOCK myself in a farking room trying farkin hard to study or even memorise the whole textbk or trying to be a farkin nerd!! so wad wrong with i aim high? i used to get As when i was in poly k then now in uni leh I AM GETTING Bs... Bss is flooding me!! hope not becos my name start with B lah if like tat i rather change my name loh change to ANGELINE lah haha cos nbs got a farkin ugly angeline farkin smart one leh!! so maybe it works leh

left with final yr nia dun pin too much hope of moving up to second lower class loh the basket is full of rotten eggs and my golden eggs are less so no points even if i score all golden eggs next sem btw oso dun tink i can one sem SCORE ALL GOLDEN EGGS.. unless i am determine to turn into NERD.. study study study everyday!! argh fark uni life!! well, pple say it like tat lah cos poly pple seldom study mah.. excuse me hor it not becos other pple nv study then nv do well cos i do well k.. I ALSO WORK VERY HARD FOR MY ACHIEVEMENTS.. it not variable or dependent on others..!! yea and to let peeps noe, poly pple are studying smart while J* peeps are studying blindly.. i confirm u all go society work sure kanna fark one loh.. wrong concept all theories no technical stupid brain come out all the things also memorise one..

okie shall cool myself down, hasnt been myself recently reason behind = yeah the past is back to haunt me.. and to be honest, I AM CONFUSED, SCARED, UPSET & LOST!! thr no way i could find a right decision or perphaps in the first place thr is no right or wrong.. it jus different path tat peeps choosed.. for those who knew abt it, thanks for ur care, console and encouragment, I'm not a brave gal, a strong gal, a independent gal.. so it takes time for me to put ur advice into action even though it makes sense and wish to have a happy ending instead of creating more tragedy.. thanks peeps *appreciate*

gonna meet wen and yiling in city hall to discuss our FYP project yeah i cant screw this up so i am giving my 200% effort in it! shall blog again when i am free~~ *wish me free from worries*