a gloomy wed with dark clouds, loud thunder, striking lightnings & heavy rain.. it is freezing in the office.. and i am upset!!
right frm the morni, i been emo.. serious emo.. felt like my heart is breaking apart and i am dying forever~ in silent.. yupi, everything went wrong early in the morni! i bought the soyamilk as usual and i rem vividly "I WANT WARM" then as i took the cup and drank the first mouthful "PUI*" it is farkin cold!! ya i not being fussy here k jus tat my stomach hasnt been feeling well these few weeks trying very hard to avoid stuff that hurts my stomach.. true enough, i shitted again in the morni.. thanks auntie for ur COLD soyamilk ya!!
next, i slp quite early last nite but not sure why i cant get up tis morni so i was late and in super rush.. then met inconsiderate communters.. thanks tat uncle for ur continuous sneezing and digging of nose tat nearly fly to my face!! real thx!!
so qr was on mc cant join us for lunch together but the rest of us went to eat prawn mee!! as i reached thr wanna order onli loh, boss called to say meeting at 12.30pm fark, it like onli 10mins away leh.. so i said i will be back onli at 1.30pm cos i was at lau pa sa!! serious shit i ate like farkin fast then head back.. jus as i alight the bus, RAINING HEAVILY!! serious shit!! i nv bring umbrella lah then jitao the whole team of pple waiting for me to start the meeting onli loh lucky angus brought umbrella to shelter.. thanks dude!
yea, then the disaster strike!! my boss confirm with me tat thr will be CPF deduction for my pay & i SHOULD BE receiving my pay in these 2 days which means the earliest i can bank in the cheque is on FRI!! fark then i cant receive the money till NEXT WEEK!! kaoz, i am seriuosly piss off with all these shit!! seriously, there is no system or they hired a farkin stupid finance dept that ever exist in SG!! the finance dept jitao one man show arh, issue 2 cheques nia need SO MANY DAYS!! one cheque only $800 loh even if u change all to CASH count a note a day also COUNT FINISH liao ba.. or u jitao all change to gold $1 coin count one a day isit.. cb u work farkin like a turtle isit!! or u farkin everyday slack and slack then nv do work!! then still say wad tax authority say PA is like full time job need to deduct TAX.. cb u ask the TAX AUTHORITY of course they say like tat lah deduct my pay put inside their acc jitao is like PROFIT to them wor.. got pple so stupid until REJECT MONEY meh!! fark up serious shit!! then since PA is like a full time job why am i not entitled to SICK LEAVE or whr is my 14days of LEAVE!! *pui* nothing can explain my anger now, i am serious piss with how the company work!!
next, is the farkin stupid wireless network in the company.. it farkin stupid!! they machiam cut cost until use super stupid router.. jitao every few mins disconnected liao!! everything must refresh, then sign in again!! kaoz!! my hse singnet 8mbs using 2wire router cost onli $58 a month is FARKIN BETTER THAN URS!! YOU STUPID ROUTER BETTER CRASH & DIE!! argh!! ya, as i was typing this post i have already been disconnected 5times.. thanks ya stupid router!!
so i conclude, the farkin finance dept is stupid, lazy then the farkin IT dept is noobie and useless.. the whole company is in senile!! my whole farkin month PAY is still not in and i can reali farkin FORSEE my NEXT MTH pay wun be on time also!! or u wanna farkin pay me after 10weeks or even when I FARKIN LEAVE THE COMPANY LIAO THEN SEND TO ME BY POST!! wtf..!! i fakrin gonna blow up the whole thing if I STILL DO NOT RECEIVE MY FARKIN PAY BY TIS FRI & IF YOU DEDUCT FOR MY CPF I GONNA REPORT TO SAO & GET THEM TO GIVE ME AN EXPLANATION!! it like $800 still deduct cpf i farkin survive on how much=$640!! cb lah lao niang already low on cash liao loh u farkin chu stunt rite.. then i shall also farkin chu stunt!! dun tink silent cat are harmless my bite is worse than my BARK!!
so i already cant stand all these nonsence shit and decide to email my ntu supervisor.. let hope she will help me in this issue!!
i tried very hard to hold my tears but i jus cant!! the moment i finish writing tis post, i went downstair to take a farkin deep breath and i finally broke down!! i cried for abt an hr calling every of my close fren tat i could but none was able to help me but thanks for the encouragement i reali appreciates~ guess too much stuff is weighing me down lately then make me so weak.. tat not the true me, i used to be a strong gal.. despite the hardship i underwent.. frm secondary skol teachers looking down on us, despised us and are sure normal A students wun be able to make it to jc or poly even if they farkin eat pig brain everyday.. so i slog myself studying more than 15hrs a day staying after skol every nite studying at a hot and dirty canteen trying very hard to resolve tough maths qns alone till late 10pm before i head home ate my dinner fast and starts studying again till the wee hrs before i head for slp and go skol the next day at 7am.. i onli slept for 4hrs a day for continous 7mths and i touched teachers' heart make them believing in us.. till they open us the skol new library for us to revise work till late hrs and teachers staying back after skol with us at library handling our mass qns.. yES, i overcome it and prove them i can do it.. moving on my life choosing poly instead of jc thinkin tat it suit me better yes indeed! i had so much fun thr enjoying myself studying and reaped my rewards.. my hardwork pay off.. i always been a lucky gal, a happy gal, a carefree gal till i entered into the farkin uni life.. guess i am not suited.. to be in tis level of entirely different social life.. to survive.. my hardwork often goes down the drain and i learn to let go.. jus enjoy the process.. but all kinds of shit happen to me.. it jus come consecutively.. hitting me hard.. making me fall and hard to get up.. but i also had to accept it.. all i wish was time could turn back.. i am losing my own self, my happy bubbly self.. my confident self... i tink Bao is dead frm the day 1 she entered into uni~~ i no longer exist~~
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