feeling empty inside.. i misses him so much~
but deep down i know things will not be back to the good old times as the scar remains on my heart, my brain.. sometimes i keep wishing if all these have never ever happened.. if all these are a dream tat was never true.. i keep asking myself, am i still in a dream imagining things.. but all these are real.. the truth which i hate to know, the worst matter which i hate to accept and the worst incident which never ever expect.. i never expect that he would and could do something so hurtful to me...
i looked and relooked at the msg which he sent me several times.. and when he finally has stopped reaching out.. my heart sank to the lowest point.. but each time, i think about wad he did, i still can't forgive understand and accept~ i keep asking myself.. what does this 5years actually meant and been? what have we been doing and how did this happened? was it me who had caused all this?
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