emo level = 99%
energy level = 10%
mood = farkin upset

tue, 2nd day of my last PA week.. all i can conclude is feeling damn fark up.. is all these my fault? i am lost and farkin in no mood to tink over.. wadever it is, it over and no point toking so much abt it.. i dun even wants to tink abt it~ wad else to tink? having too much close guy frens? is a fault? wadever!! i cant be bother wadever ur decision is, i jus have to accept wad.. nvm so be it! i dun even farkin noe wad went wrong that led to all these..? wad was the main issue that we are unhappy abt? wad xingku? it not like the xingku is always thr forever thr, we gt our happy moments didnt we? well, it reali broke my heart.. once bitten twice shy.. forget abt it~

last week of PA and i still forever remains moody.. maybe the company fengshui is not suitable for me or maybe i jus simply dun like this company okie, wadever i dun feel like saying much~ it onli gonna make me feel worse and worse~

ytd went to yihong's dad wake, i was onli notified by song gao in ytd afternoon and was rather shocked by the news.. so met up with kim to go over tgt.. when was the last time i saw yihong?? maybe abt 6mths ago? or a yr? aniwae the yihong tat i always noe is a strong, playful, fun and crappy guy.. he has always been from the day 1 i get to noe him.. he has always been this "DA GE" role among us, ensuring our safety, taking super gd care of us with motive.. he jus a super nice guy but always cant find his true love.. still rem he was so strong and fit always despite his sickly face (cos he looks very pale), during our sec days shanghai trip he will take off his jacket and gave it to us.. and in the end, he caught a cold and fall sick!! lolx.. those were the happy days.. but when i saw him ytd, tears nearly flow out without control, i held back real hard consoling him..

yihong, remains strong k, things will always find a way and ur life will still need to move on.. so it onli a matter of choice of whether u choose to start ur day happily or sadly.. tk gd care of ur mum and ur siblings though it may not be easy but it still can be work out.. i will pray hard for u to live well & happily as days passed.. tk care!!

P.S. Life is very fragile and has always been.. tat y we should cherish those precious or beside us~ it always easier to say than done.. how many pple reali did cherish those precious to them.. barely none~