I'm a Bad Gal

当世界不知不觉的变了, 有时候 我怀念以前的我 作的梦虽然远远的 想象是一种快乐.. 我不想舍得, 不想懂得, 是谁惹谁, 说谎伤害, 都是我犯的错..

i crossed the line, failing to let u be the first to noe of my decision and thus inflicted the hurt deeply on u.. left u alone suffering all these shits.. i am reali truly sry and i noe regardless of wad i try to do, it not gonna make u feel any better or hates me any lesser.. perphaps i'm not even fit to ask for ur forgiveness.. tinkin back, try to put myself in ur shoes.. i cant believe that i reali caused all this hurt on you unintentionally.. unknowingly.. unwillingly.. i am reali sorry! i hope you will get better with ur life, stop torturing urself as i dun reali wish all these to happen.. looking back at all the mails tat u sent, i felt even more bad and remorse.. it too late for everything now.. as once i crossed the line, there's no longer ways for me to turn back.. i onli pray tat u will find a reali better gal who loves u more than i do, who cherish u more than i do and who treat u 10times better than i do.. i noe i am reali a fark up gal and i reali did all these fark up stuff to u which i shouldnt have done it.. it better for u to cont hate me, so i will nv ever makes such mistakes again and hurt others.. i am reali sorry~

i seriously vexed and unsure wad i should do or perphaps should not do.. follow ur hearts? in life , i wish everything is as easy as tat but in reality it not.. so how can i jus act by gg with my feelings and without thinking of consequences.. hurting pple beside me precious to me.. i tink i reali need to reflect on myself, whether i am a gd gal who is fit enough even for a simple relationship.. am i even prepare, or am i even able to move on by pretending all these hurt that i inflicted on another guy doesnt exist at all.. i cant do it alone.. i seriously felt very bad and guilty for the whole incident.. right frm the start, it all my fault.. i am sorry~

我想.. 虽然你不说, 错在我太晚才懂.. 伤害了你太多, 这是唯一能安慰我的理由~

i will try my best to get it all over.. i hope u will too~~