sick for the day~ down with sore throat, bad cough and feverish..

must have been the late nights, long hrs of singing and drinking causing me with all these sickness.. it sucks to be sick.. and alone~ tot of staying on my bed for the whole noon but was disturbed by calls from office and urgent emails requesting for my reply.. dun pple realise that its damn cruel to ask a sick person to work?? my bad, pple do realise.. is the FAT HEN that dun.. i hate eating pills.. especially when your throat hurts and you have to force yourself to swallow those pills.. pls, let me recover soon~

kinda of sorted things out today.. i feel bad for hurting you~ i have never mean it this way.. there was once, i thought we can spend the rest of our life tgt.. i reali think so~ you're a nice and reliable man.. i'm sry to break your heart, but i jus couldnt convince myself that you are the one whom i want~ or maybe, i dont even noe what kind of man i'm looking for to spend my life with.. but for sure, at this point in time, not Someone like you.. I'm truly sorry for making that decision.. perhaps you are right, one day i will regret my decision and there's no way we could turn back time.. but, i dont wanna hold you back at this point even when I have no confidence that you are the one whom i'm looking for~ i wish you all the best~

i'm lost and confused.. not ready to commit to rs but yet, doing things which i shouldnt be.. i enjoy your accompany, everything etc.. but i'm not sure what you are expecting from me or what i'm expecting from you.. i love the way things are now and could like to continue.. but is thats the correct way and best for you..? will things still be the same as it is now? idk~