i'm nt feeling well.. mentally~ my heart ache and i couldnt even breathe properly.. frm depressed to anger in my heart.. lost for words.. im super disappointed but felt relieved at the same time that I have ended this.. at a point where its not too late yet.. asking myself many times.. "wads went wrong..? was i too naive..? or am i jus poor in judging pple?" or isit just guys are like tat? Truly, You will never know a man well enuff until you have broke up with him.. cos that when his true self reveals.. and you will realise tats the extend of his love for you~ its heartbreaking to experience all these.. again and again~ for the second time.. always learn your lesson.. why cant i jus learn??

after 3yrs and i wasnt never even aware that you could be like this.. have i all along been living in denial?? thinking that you are the best i ever had?? i'm such a fool.. romance and romance.. its all illusion and acts.. even though we arent couple anymore, i do hope that we can remains as frens.. somehow, you are someone whom i been close with for the past 3 yrs.. i tot you could understand me more than anyone else.. but it seems like, i dont understand you at all.. the kind of things which you can do to try to get us back tgt and the kind of things you do after knowing its not possible anymore are at extreme ends.. its kinda of scary.. i couldnt imagine spending my life with someone like this.. you seems like a stranger to me~

i cant trust.. i'm losing faith.. i rly need time to think things through.. i hope end August will come sooner than normal.. so that i can spend some time alone thinking wad i rly want.. be it in life, work, rs..

DT bought me a Blueberry cake to cheer me up.. I'm happy and touched.. as I'm rly not in the best of mood to even smile and need a cake desperately.. esp My fav, Angie the choice strawberry short cake.. of course, at tat hour, he will not be able to get one.. but he wasnt feeling well, and yet tried his best to look for the cake.. somehow, it did makes the cake taste nicer than my fav strawberry cake.. but at the same time, the happiness makes me feel scared and worried.. i keep thinking.. all these nice and sweet care, one day, it will also disappear and stop.. and everything will become the same~ Maybe~ i dun wan to think abt all these~

*Pls allow me to forget all these unhappiness and at least, let me keep a nice memory of you..