not knowing wad you want, but you have to find out wad u rly want.. this feeling sucks.. if onli everything is clearly laid in front of u, perphaps it will be so much easier to choose..

the year ending soon.. and thinking back.. i didnt achieve much in life.. feels so sianz abt it.. wad have i been doin?? and wad should i do next yr.. work and life.. both so sucky..

wanted to find some time and tok to DJ but jus couldnt find the right chance.. she give me the feeling that she doesnt wants to tok to me.. maybe i should jus ignore it and move on.. but i hate this kind of feeling and situation.. tim moving on to the new dept pretty soon in Nov.. again, one less fun pple to work with ard.. im kinda of happy for him that he got something tat he like, but at the same time, i feel depressed.. working tgt since we started off.. the journey where we scrambled in work.. struggled tgt to learn stuff.. getting whacked.. and now, so many pple who i love have left.. the dept doesnt make me feel like staying.. but neither am i noe tat if i should go HK.. there are too many uncertainties.. and whr to find the courage to take the next step forward.. cont with the current and jus everyday happy-go-lucky.. will i be happy???