it been a super duper long time since i last blog.. super terrible mood.. empty soul.. full brain.. with endless wishes..

i wish time could jus turn back.. turn back to primary one.. where i am nurture with love and care.. start my life all over again.. whether would things still turn out the same..

tat day i met up with alvin and sur.. everyone has grown up lots and lots.. but still remains unchanged.. sur is forever quiet, and i always the chrippy one.. alvin is the always pour wet blanket on all my ideas one.. haha but life changes.. sur is desperately looking for a job.. alvin is desperately doin his studies well.. and i am desperately trying to work my ass up in the society.. on my way hm tgt with alvin, i told him wads troubling me recently.. and all he said was "baoyin, actuali you have been cursed since sec days liao mah.. dun u realised..??" wtf.. the moment i tink of it, the more it makes sense k..

1. sec days: despite being the 3rd across all cohort, i nv once get any farkin prize in speech day. cos i am best in accounts and science (alvin even better) so nv get, maths good (but sur even better) so nv get again, then eng good (hanafi even good) so nothing.. chui.. even until Olevels before we get our individual result slip.. the skol flash the top 5 students on screen, MISSED my name!! cursed!!

2. poly: same gpa.. but no medal for me.. MISSED the bronze medal.. reason: ??? till now i still dun noe..

3. uni: always suay at the wrong timing.. many many suay things.. wadever~

haiz~~ i reali wish time could turn back.. now, i am lost.. reali lost at how i should cont to walk my future journey.. wad am i suppose to do..~~ (T-T)