finally, i can have a good rest and a BIG sigh of relief woo~~

MY EXAMS IS FINALLY OVER!!

2 weeks of tedious revision reali drains my brain, but lucky my acc as usual no big problem, but my maths and investment jitao chui to the max loh shit!! esp maths, 4qns i onli noe how to do 1qns gd one so 50marks also not sure got not loh!! all i noe one dun come out fucking come out wad GP & AP, black scholes etc then my pro chapters like utility, function, arrow debreu all nv come out wtf!! oso not sure why predict everything oso no chun one loh acc also come out 3qns from in front all chapters whr the quiz already tested before one then onli 1 qns on stupid bottleneck constraints haha but lucky i noe how to do lah but not enough time nia.. haha

alrite been planning for a jb massage + pedicure + feast + shopping trip, so decide to get it done separately in 2trips haha smart rite like tat then got enough time mah then christmas is coming so need to get my presents ready then goin soon gonna choose my spec modules liao chui loh not sure wad to choose oso recommend?? i am considering wealth management, international financial management and corporate finance lah initially choose ntu i already decided wad to tk but they restructure the whole spec that it will be more focus on the asset management track so many of the banking modules which i was interested in was being removed so wad the point of being in NTU loh? fuck up!! alrite, then i need to start my driving practical lesson immediately cos i already delayed 2mths since i passed my advance!! haha not enough time loh

during my exam period, i had some unpleasant misunderstandings with my family. but was too sad to even blog abt it but aniwae long story cut short, pple jus dun understand how u feel but accuse tat is how u feel meaning they put words in ur mouth and tink they are the onli one suffering. i super pissed off with tat as someone keep saying "everytime tink u study uni then very proud like tat" so i fuking piss!! wad so proud of tat!! in sg, almost 75% are undergraduate i am jus one of it and is not like i doing farkin well in uni tat make me so proud. i rather pple ask abt me in poly then in uni loh why?

cos pple ask "hey, bao how ur life in uni?" then
me: " okie loh farkin stress, sad and tired"

see, ever since i started my uni life, who ever heard me saying tat i enjoy it!! wad i put into my studies doesnt pay off, i already fucking disappointed with my current result then u thr say i fucking proud. proud wad? i am jus a fuckin undergraduate who merely pass k maybe i have to even resort to depend on my luck to graduate!! i dun even dare to reveal my uni grades to them loh, yet they say i proud!! fark shut up if u dun understand wad i am goin through!!

everyone tink it nice, u can study in ntu.. ya ya ya i noe! but wad, it not like i nv pay off any effort!! i use all my fun time, being a nerd studying at home all day long k, i scarifice my youth and slp time jus to busy mugging for my exams k.. then wad have u all done, jus to nag at me for not being concern abt u all, for not showing my care and concern.. i dun have so much time to share with everyone k!!

aniwae, if i get to choose again, i confirm will choose to enter uni 2yrs ltr!! poly graduate go work first, earn experience earn money then sponsor my own education then i no need to be accountable to anione or disappoint anione!! it so stressful when u r not doin well, think of giving up, but u jus CANT!! why?? cos time dun turn back and life keep on moving.. since i made tis choice, had to persist on it wad.. but if my family is farkin rich busy printing currencies everyday then of course it a different story wad..!!

it jus so frustrating when someone keep on saying something that piss my ears!!