wEll, now is 3am & here i am bloggin why..?? basically i am too sad to slp.. source..?? wadever!!

peeps, if u have viewed the video give comments ya.. becos do u peeps realised how tough my life is in NTU..?? i like the feedback on "if your moustache is the source of intelligence, then dun set exam paper too hard becos most of us dun have moustache" nice1.. haha jus like wad wen said, if she can graduate frm tis farkin skol then tat will be her proudest achievement in life lolx.. nice1 ya i absolutely agree!! if i manage to endure 3years in NTU, i will acknowledge myself tat HARDWORK=SUCCESS and i am not a retard!!

i long for someone to tok to.. someone who can reali understand wad i am goin thr.. someone who support me regardless of wad decision i made.. i had my freedom of making decision ever since my PSLE, and i enjoy it. i didnt regret becos i did made right decisions till now.. and i dun allow others to influence me but, i start to tink did i made the right choice of studying or even choosing NTU.. so now i got to make a decision of whether giving up, cont or transfer skol.. to be frank, i am confused or even scare.. not becos scare kanna scold by my mum but scare of regretting giving up a dream which i pursue for so many years which include wasting all my hardwork tat i put in, all the scarifice tat i made over the years & imptly, dashing my mum's hope & breaking her heart.. i am scare that i might regret the decision tat i make, i may seem strong and firm but deep down, i give it alot of tots.. tis is gonna be a tough period for me to pull thr struggling between my life, studies, relationship, friends.. i am not born a genius, all along i persevere thr hardwork but does hardwork really pay off sometimes.. wad i mean of 'pay off' does not mean getting good grades basically i jus wan to enjoy studying and have a memorable, fun uni life throughout the 3yrs.. can i achieve tat?? i doubt so given the current situation..

relationship side has all along been rocky ever since it started.. happy together but thr always something tat makes me give up easily.. honestly speaking i noe wad it is, it the fear of getting hurt.. before i get hurt, i will try to take cover first.. it may seem chim to u peeps, but i dun noe wad a better way of explaining it.. our relationship takes a toll, i wanna amend it and pull us back together but.. i am too tired.. reali tired.. i am totally wear out by skol stuff, family stuff till i dun even have the strength to tink of tis relationship.. i jus hope tat he will stand by me, support me, be thr for me when i need him the most and understand me the most of wad i goin thr.. tat all i ask for, maybe it too much for him since he goin thr NS now.. so thr nothing i can do, and thr is nothing he can do.. pathetic rite.. a cooling period for both of us and i hope it will do us gd.. maybe during tis period we can better understand whether we reali need each other in our life and hopefully, i got a less burden to tink of, stress over and put my full energy into the coming exams..

sorry peeps, it a long blog today as i dun tink i will be bloggin tat frequent, unless special events.. all i blog abt is jus complaints abt skol so i guess i better stop tat.. and exams will keep me away from my com too i guess.. take care peeps nitez..